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Power (6.22 Meditation)
04:10
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[Act II]
Shorty outta Howard U
I’m like ay, how are you?
Name is Ali, what you tryna get into?
I was finna leave til I saw I saw you coming thru
Shit, I know you got the good Power U, wassup
And you know she got the good leather Louie clutch
Custom stitch;
Crème colored run star chucks
A work of art, baby do not touch
Could hear my heart on a thump
From the jump when she walked on up
Third floor, but we’ll treat it like the penthouse, ladyyy
respect ya agency, this ain’t in-house ladyyy
Shit I’d hate to see
Just to keep it G
If we never test the frequency
I’d be sick out baby
Checkitout checkitout
So I’ll be in and out, baby
[Act I]
Back when I ain’t know the Loop from my shoe laces
My friends put me on a app, see some new faces
So I could e-rase this
Portrait of a woman from my mind
Who I thought about all the time
See in the O, I was too well-known and too anxious
To be on a website flirting with strangers
I’d rather be the nice guy with clean reputation
Some niggas roll the dice sharing they all information
But not me
I was busy stressing, sweating over who I ought be
What does it take to be Shawn, Lauryn or Aubrey?
Something gotta give, it’s ailing me softly
Outta thoughts, outta time, the door is revolving
And I’m evolving
What good is it to rhyme and be giving up all my prime?
I took my pride put it all behind
And put my heart out front
Open up for once
~uh~
Met somebody, we was tight for months
Short hair, brown skinned, like ta light the dutch…
I wrote her letters, blowing cheddar; might wife her up
Then I found out that her ex still getting to touch
Shit was far too much
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Checkitout checkitout
So I’ll be in and out, baby
[Act III]
So let me explain:
Used to have a heart, now an ice-box re-main
If we had a spark, then I’ll douse out the flame
I done changed, look at the range
Both player and a coach in control of the game
See, that's power
If I got it then I feel protected
Didn’t realize the insecurities projected…
On innocent women ‘cause one did me sorta reckless
Reacting with my ego, I overcorrected
Call up my grandma for perspective and more mindfulness
…what can I learn from this?
Gotta admit, I was surprised at the turn of events:
She heard the story and said boy every-thing is a risk
Every-thing has potential to turn into shit
You gon be holding hurt cause you don’t like how somethin went?
You gon be half-stepping cause you afraid to commit?
What you give is what you get, so what you leaving with?
That shit was crazy, right?
I laid at night tripping, spinning
Brain swimming
Reflecting on my interactions with women
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It represents a deeper fear that’s been hidden
So Ima treat June 2nd like a second beginning
And that’s power
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STMS [11.1.20 Demo]
03:34
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[V1]
Blowing Ls indiscreet, swing a ep in the Jeep
I was sick of the same scene, took my faith on a leap
Some days I maintain, some days when I weep
I upraise the price, appraise the preme
… that’s the tweet
Don’t nobody want no smoke, they know that’s the chief
Think it’s all bark, but I’m on my grind like I’m gnashing teeth
Keep ya head down, see the cash increase
Mr. Porter slacks creased
Risen from the ash heap
Whole lotta izm
My decisions outlast me
Goals and a vision
Through the prism of a glass piece
Pro-abolition, free Palestine and max b
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See if the shoe fits, I’m in Carolina blue kicks
Narrow-minded niggas adding two cents,
But I'm the news clips cliquing with Blueprint
Mami axin who’s this
In my ear it’s only God and Q-tip
Only begotten nuisance
Forbidden truth is the kid is ruthless
Talent roof-less,
Torturing myself cause I’m never satisfied with my improvements
Columbus, OH, I provided a movement
Shorty playing games, and I feel like I’m past that
Money clip on me, last year I was cash-strapped
Heisman on them hoes in a hazmat
Toxic, fucking with my brain, causing flashbacks
[Hook] (x2)
Gotta do something that means something
Something that means something
Something that means something
[V2]
How could I floss if I’m rotten at the root?
Had to get my mind right, had to get myself through
Set up bound-aries and women turned femmes en feu
But good riddance…I’ll do me and you do you
Taking in fresh breath, taking on less stress
There was a time I thought success was mea-sured by excess—
How do I get the look, how do I impress?
Until my whole life was all about the clout I possessed
At the studio, I feel unease:
My verse played from a song I made with Kashis Keyz
…Niggas starting gassin, shorties screamed
But nobody heard a word or a harmony
That type of shit is hard for me
Since I’ve made my life bout forming a discography
I’ve become an agent of hypocrisy:
Through the art I preach about peace, empowerment and philosophy
Yet without attention what any good is my artistry?
It’s speaking to an empty room
My friends on MTV cause MP3s got plenty views
Pavilion mezzanine I hesitate and panic looms—
Can I reach masses talking Tupac and David Hume?
I wish I had an answer, too
Logging off IG as soon as my check passes thru
Nonprofit outreach and other work I had to do
Tryna liberate and decolonize
But it’s hard to rise when I rely on Spotify and dotted lines
[Hook]
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Meditation 11.22.20
04:10
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All messed up with nowhere to go
Mango vest shoulder the load
Van Gogh brush wit the flow
This shit is for the south side, 33rd and below
Until I feel the rush, I’m happy taking it slow
Take my time to reload
music sho’ can erode
Purpose and soul, until you feelin outta control
I gotta take a step back, refocus my goal
What’ll be left of me when I’m not out hur anymore?
Live from the chi
Right hand drying my eyes
Left hand scrolling thru pics of me wearing disguise
I prioritized my want to be recognized
I signed autographs like I was really that guy
Obsession over flash, the cash and yearning eyes
Undressing women off of a stage name on fliers
This is what I ordered, but it ain’t quite my size
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Who am I to be who I’m not?
Running so long, eating the clock
…Never reaching the top
At this rate, I sold myself for barren crop
Cause I ain’t gon be Hov or Nas, Drake or Dot
So what else do I got?
I’m talking to my pops, asking how to be a man
How to overcome, how to execute a plan
He said do what I can, but some shit is outta my hands
That’s a hard truth I needed to understand
Looking at his life, looking at mine
Seeing parallels bending time that intertwine
He was twenty six, feeling fear he was falling behind
Forty years later, here I am, failing the climb
Going out of my mind
Been searching so long, when the fuck will I find?
And what will I find?
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Sarob Chicago, Illinois
Something that means something.
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